My Mind Won't Stop
It was just one of those days. Nothing was working the way I had hoped, conflict abounded, my body was tired and my mind overworked. As the day progressed, I attempted to give myself a boost with every mom's favorite drug: coffee. However, it didn't really work so I decided it was time for a nap in the afternoon. I laid there in complete and utter doneness. I was done communicating, done fighting, done parenting, done wifeing, DONE with all of it. I got cozy in my bed, ready to shut off. My eyes closed, I breathed deeply and prepared for rest. But a funny thing happened...my mind kept going and going and going, racing at a frantic pace.
I am a firm believer in the power and necessity of rest. It usually comes pretty naturally to me, but I observe it because it also happens to be commanded in the Bible (Sabbath anyone? That's an ENTIRE DAY of rest every week!). When I read about Jesus I find He rested as often as He could. He would go off to a quiet place and rest. He met a woman at a well and changed her life as He sought rest. For some reason, God designed rest with us in mind. I think it's because He knows we are an easily distracted group.
That day as I was becoming frustrated with my lack of real rest, it occurred to me that the rest Jesus experienced wasn't actually simply napping and stopping all work. There was more to it. It seems when I look at it as a holy experience - a time to disconnect from self, worry, and life - I am able to reconnect with God by getting still and quiet. Then I truly enter into God's presence.
I've often wondered what happened in Jesus's moments of rest. Over time I have come to realize that maybe God didn't let us in on that because we're each so uniquely made, that rest is going to look different for each of us. Perhaps He also knows that we like everything to be easy and if He let us know what Jesus did, we'd try to make a formula out of it and do exactly that. But the best times of rest come when I let go of formulas and plans and simply experience Him as He leads. Read More