For those of you that know me, you know that I struggle with clutter (as in I have no tolerance for it). I really don't like anything on my tables or counters. AT ALL. I am a horrible decorator because I just don't get how to 'group' things and put them in places. Some people take this to mean I am super clean, which is totally wrong. I can't stand to dust and please don't ever look at the floors if you come to my house!!! But underneath all that exterior organization is a huge secret. All that clutter that I can't stand around the house...I just take it and shove it in a closet.
Yes. I am a closet hoarder.
The truth is, I will pile everything in there until I can't stand it and then, eventually, I sort it all out. It takes forever. It would be so much easier if I just let the mess in my life happen and cleaned it as I go, right??? The struggle is real.
But here is the beauty of who God puts in our lives. I have a sister-in-law that I love. She is an awesome mom and a wonderful wife to my brother and here is the best thing - she doesn't see clutter!!! It doesn't bother her at all. She can have things piled up on her table and when we walk into the room, she will pull out a piece of artwork my nephew has made from the pile. She totally sees the magnificence in the mess; what is of real value. I have learned so much from her because instead of seeing our differences as something that divided us, I saw them instead as something that could help me, teach me, inspire me.
As I have gotten older, I have really tried to just let the mess happen and I don't stick nearly as much stuff in the closet as I used to. I have a grandson who pulls out whatever he wants and I just step over it. God has taught me so much about letting go and having patience. The day I decided to give Him ALL of myself (not just the clean, perfect me) was the best day of my life. My hope is you do the same and find what He has hidden in the clutter for you.
April is wife to an amazing man, mother to three beautiful girls, and grandmother to the most precious boy EVER. She began to recognize God's chase at the age of 44, in a season of major change. April continues to search for God daily in the middle of this fast-paced, over-stimulated world, and when something makes her uncomfortable and challenges her she knows that God is knocking and she should listen.